***You don't have to read this if you don't want to... this is for journaling purposes****

I am using my blog as a journal/scrapbook. I want to be able to remember my emotions and feelings SO that is why i decided to just write how i feel. Plus by writing things down it helps you feel better anyway!
I can't believe that after 10 years of friendship with someone it has come to an end. I feel like I give and give in my friendships and relationships with people. So to feel so betrayed and hurt really has thrown me through a loop! When you pour you heart out to someone and they know how you feel about things, to have that thrown back in your face huts bad!
I just don't understand "superficial" people. What good does it do and no body is perfect so what would give them the right to treat others badly.?
I just had one of what i thought was my dearest friends say the worst things behind my back to a mutual friend of ours.
He told my friend that he couldn't be more unattracted to me if i was a guy AND that if she was a good friend she would encourage me to continue working out! WHO SAYS THAT!? OUCH! And its not like the person who said it doesn't know how much i struggle with being the "biggest" sister.
It's amazing how someone can you bring you down so badly and make you feel so worthless! And just hearing all that brought back a lot of emotion from the horrible break up i had with Tom 6 years ago.
I am thankful for the people in my life that love me for me and not how i look!