7 years...

With *tears* in my eyes I write this post.

WHY?

Because no matter how much time passes, my emotions still know how to get the best of me.

Today

March 20

would have been my 7 year wedding anniversary.

And I'm not crying because I am sad about not being with him.

Or the fact that the wedding didn't happen. I thank my luck my stars that it didn't happen.

I would have been a sad, lonely, broken person If I had chosen to marry him that day.

But luckily with my family by my side and my amazing supportive friends.

I was strong enough to walk away from that. (More like run)

I became who I am today because of that experience. I grew SO much and figured out who I was.

One thing he did give me...

was the gift to know that I CAN love.

Knowing love does exist.

I often wondered If I loved him at all...

I did!

I fell hard for him.

But with that said...I also know that I can love someone so much more than I loved him.

Make sense?

I don't think I will ever allow myself to fall as fast and as hard as I did with Tom.

My walls have just grown too much.

I was a young naive girl at the time.

Now as a 30 year old...I'm more cautious.

And that's okay.

I feel like I just rambled. wow.

Today is MY anniversary of making the best decision of my life SO FAR...